“I am a cemetery by the moon unblessed.”
I insist on keep on living when my ego is slowly dying.
I’ve done wrong again. I am the worst person on Earth. She knows that. I’m such an evil person, I only gave her loads of sorrow. I don’t deserve anyone. I don’t deserve someone wonderful as her. Not ever. We’re going to break up soon, maybe today. And she got all the rights. Now I understand why nobody likes me. Now I see why no one could ever love me. I will never love someone as I love her now. I can’t stand getting close to anyone. I’ll always think of her. This weekend I’ll be home alone and there will be no one to stop me from going away of this world. I even know that nobody will care. My body, my mind and my heart are so done, so full of loneliness and sorrow… I just can’t take it anymore. Farewell, harbor from my darkest thoughts. Sorry for every bad feeling I gave to you.